I don't know if you people remember, but there was a time when I took a vacation, during that time I went to a pawn shop, to be more precise, I went to visit an old friend of mine, a very wise friend.
Her name is Rose, she is sixty four years old and she is the wisest woman I have ever met. She isn't human, her beauty is above humanity's, only with her I can truly feel like I'm not a part of the game.
I met her completely by accident, when I was not on the board, when I was simply an escaped asylum patient, I just finished murdering an innocent woman, I was on the run and while seeking for refuge, I found comfort i the pawn shop, that I had broken into.
However, she heard me, she is blind, she thought I was a homeless bum, just looking for shelter, she was ready to provide it too. I was amazed at how trusting she was, that was the only reason that prevented me from taking her life, I was intrigued.
As she prepared tea for me and sat down with me, she asked me, what I was doing breaking into her pawn shop. I was never a liar, so I just told her everything, straight out. To my surprise, she didn't panic, nor did she call for help, she was still very warm and welcoming towards me. I was stunned, such a reaction, why? Why was she not panicking. So I asked her, why was she ok with it? I was wrong.
She wasn't ok with it, on the contrary, she is against murder and any other kind of sin, yet she is not the one to interfere in other's paths. She was and still is sure, that some day, I will see the error of my way, I keep telling her that I won't, that this is my way, this is how it is in my way, no other way, pure destruction.
She understands that and believes that in my own twisted way, in my own understanding, destruction brings salvation and in the end, I want nothing but to bring good to this world. She understands that, she see's good even in the worst of us. She is a true saint, a true angel.
I want to visit her one last time, funny thing is, I got my love for tea from her. I don't know what she does, but her tea is fucking amazing.