So now that I got that little filler post out of the way, let me tell you about what I have been wrecking my brain over this entire time.
I thought that my visit to the Catacombs was a success and maybe it was, but I'm finding the real task only now, deciphering this book that I'm not even sure is what I was originally looking for. I can't even call it "deciphering" simply because there is no cipher of any kind in this book, simply put, there's nothing in this book, the pages are blank and I can't help but think that I was tricked.
But I know that I wasn't, because there is something in this book, I just can't see it, or even comprehend it, but I can feel that there's something... on those pages? In them? To them? Like I said, mind wrecking. So I've tried everything, I asked my darling to look at it and there is definitely something there, she can see it, understand it, but can not relay it to me, not without completely merging with me and as I've said before, when we're closer to our goal, we'll do it, now is not the time. I stained one page with my blood, in hopes that maybe that would do something, but no, all I did was just cover a page in my blood. I'm running out of ideas here, if only Med was still around, I'm sure she would jump at the opportunity to analyse one of the Blind Man's books, guess I'm going to have to seek out help on this one.
So since I can't exactly talk about the findings, let's talk about what I'm hoping to find and it's simple really, I want to find out exactly what happened to Sergei when he traversed into the Path for the final time. I want to know what he found out prior to his trip that made him believe that he was able to kill Slendy, simply put, I want to compare notes. As I've said before, at some point in his journey, he stumbled into the Blind Man's domain, something happened there, he found out something, something crucial, something critical, something definite to a point that he executed his adopted brother, thinking that he wouldn't require his help anymore and I have a suspicion as to what it was, but I need confirmation.
This book, given to me by the Blind Man's little messenger, the book that I dove into the tarlike waters of the catacombs for, it holds that answer, it will tell me what happened to Sergei, it will show me his last moments, I will understand the knowledge he learnt that made him so certain of Slendy's mortality.
And then, if my suspicions are confirmed then my plans will begin to finally move forward with the removal of existence itself, all of it, in one go, unlike The Quiet that slowly eats through reality, leaving behind bits and pieces, allowing them to grow and eventually mend what was erased, create anew. That's why I don't serve The Quiet, or try to cause it, it simply doesn't cut it, sure it consumes existence, leaving nothing but non-existence in it's wake, but while it does that, somewhere, at some point, new existence is born and it just doesn't stop, the pointless circle continues.
I find the fools that serve The Quiet to be complete idiots, sure, their desires might align with mine, but their views are so limited as to the potential of their desire that it is absolutely foolish to serve The Quiet, look how slowly it works: https://thenearnessofyou.blogspot.com/
It took it several days to plummet the whole world into non-existence, that's too slow, because during those days, as it was devouring the world, reality was quickly, automatically fixing itself, The Veils did their magic and kept everything together with ease, or have you not noticed, we're still around. The Fear of The Quiet is foolish, the only reason people fear it is because their limited mind won't allow them to see the limitations of The Quiet itself.
But I do and if my hunch is correct, then those of you who serve Quiet, should swiftly start serving me instead, because my plan will achieve that, which the Quiet causes, without giving Reality the opportunity to mend.
Heh.
