As I am sitting on my ass, watching over the girl, I am getting rather bored, I can't leave yet, my darling, Fortissimo tells me I need to stay for a bit longer, I don't know why, granted, the girl is interesting, but my darling took a bigger interest towards the girl than I did. But I trust my darling, thus I remain.
So as I am getting bored, I decided to satisfy myself, by reading your thoughts, it's time for another Audio Therapy.
So the rules go like last time, but since we have a few newcomers (You know who you people are) I will re-explain. There is an audio file below, you listen to it, in order to fully experience the effect of this therapy, I suggest, relaxing, taking deep breaths and closing your eyes, after that, let your imagination run wild. After the audio finishes, you write a comment of what you saw while listening to the audio, it can be anything, a scenario throughout the audio, a picture, a memory you are reminded of, anything you see.
Also, to clear up confusion that most people have with these Therapy Sessions. I do these out f boredom, sometimes killing someone isn't enough to satisfy my boredom, I don't do this, to somehow exploit your weaknesses, or unlock something about you, that you are hiding, I don't need these therapy sessions in order to do that.
Also, everyone is welcome to participate, people that I dislike, people that dislike me, everyone is welcome, don't be afraid to express what you see, there are no wrong answers here.
Let's begin.
Reminds me of a mission a while back I never really talked about. Not for any real reason mind you. Just never struck me as memorable. This Runner... Haley I think her name was, had decided to hide out in some Dancy Ravy Place nearly constantly blasting this Techno Bullshit. It was distracting as fuck. Constant changes of rhythm, so erratic and loud. Don't need that. Did not need that. It made me unfocused. So I ended up gutting some guy and his girlfriend. That made everyone panic and run, so the target was about to escape.
ReplyDeleteEnded up killing about... Three more people before noticing her trying to follow the crowd trying to ram itself through the door. No way for certain I could get to her in time, so I pulled out my gun and emptied a clip in her general direction. Didn't bother counting the idiots who got killed beside her, but one lucky bullet found her eye. That such a boring night. So annoying. Hated that Techno dance bullshit. Taught me a valuable lesson. And taught me that Techno as a music genre was kind of shitty.
Take notes everyone, in order to annoy Skywalker, just play loud Techno Music.
DeleteIn any way, can't say it's a good job, as it is less of a vision and more of a memory, but hell, the fact that you saw something during the music, means you have imagination.
Made me think of robots. Obvious route, but I'm an obvious person. Anyway, robots. Slaves. Like Redlight, the shards, the attendants, all that bullshit. trying to control us. Hammer us down, make us fucking obey. Remove everything that makes us us until we're just another face in the crowd. Sure, there are people who fight back; human nature to want t o remain yourself. But by the end? That's gone. Percussive, predictable. Repetitive. It's already fucked, they already took control. All that's left is a goddamn echo, a requiem. Because they take your personality, you're already dead. An echo is all that's left, drowned out by this fucking utopia of slaves.
ReplyDeleteRobots? I saw a wild jungle full of hyenas.
DeleteIn any way, interesting read, good job.
This made a few different images flash through my mind.
ReplyDeleteA centipede crawling along the ground, blood spray hitting a wall, someone falling, the centipede attacking a tarantula and killing it easily then moving on to fight a scorpion. The scorpion puts up a fight but is eventually overpowered and killed, blades cutting skin, a human mouth with inhumanly sharp teeth, dragonflies in flight, then back centipede to the centipede- still crawling along
Symbolism, sadly symbolism isn't my forte, still a very interesting perspective, good job.
DeleteHm... Out of curiosity, Calavera, do you like, or at least, take an interest in any sort of arthropods- like insects or arachnids?
DeleteOne time, when I was spying on Incognito, I was hiding in a bunch of leaves in the forest. Upon much more closer examination of the leaves, I could see a Spider hiding, like camouflaged.
DeleteSo I take a closer look, and that spider, had almost like a human face, it was interesting, so I looked it up on the net and found out that it was a spider from the family of Deinopidae.
These spiders are called "Ogre-Faced Spiders".
I Googled it and I can't stop giggling. It looks like a soldier with a pair of binoculars. Teehee, it's very cute, for a spider.
DeleteHey, Kelevra, what is your favourite animal?
Hyenas, I don't know why, they seem cute to me.
DeleteAh the ogre faced spider is quite cute indeed. I like the way that they fling their web down over their prey before pulling it up and wrapping it completely.
DeleteSpiders are fascinating to me.
Personally, I like tarantulas. Heh... so fuzzy and cute while also being swift and efficient predators. I think it's interesting how they have different temperaments too- how some are so docile while others are very aggressive
I like scorpions too, though not as much as spiders. Saw footage of an emperor scorpion killing a mouse once. It stung the mouse repeatedly, even after it stopped moving. Reminded me of a little sewing machine
If only I could see the same interest that you have with spiders.
DeleteSadly, I can not say I do have that interest.
Fuck a duck, someone else who likes hyenas!!!! Sorry, this is a rare and glorious day for me. They are super adorable. Especially hyena cubs. I love their round ears. Fuck what Disney says, hyenas are misunderstood. Also, their bite is strong enough to break elephant bones, which they then eat, and that is why their poop is white.
DeleteMy favourite animal is a tiger, however. Mostly out of sentiment, since I have always liked tigers, I like how they are independent, stealthy, fierce and very beautiful.
She's walking, but a quick glance behind her causes her to break into a run, diving between building frantically, dodging from alleyway to alleyway. It becomes almost a pattern, forward, right, left, left, right, and so on. She keeps running not even bothering to wonder what it is she's running from. She feels as though jolts of lightning are striking the ground immediately after her steps. She runs out of the city, into a huge desert. It is night, and cold. She continues to run, refusing to look back before slowing to a stop and looking behind her. She feels utterly lost, terrified, and is quickly reminded of what caused her to run in the first place and she sets off again, ignoring her tired legs as she comes to a dark forest, occassionally running through patches of water. She can tell that it's still behind her, but she can't acknowledge it. It's following her, she can hear it's steps ringing out behind her as she ducks into a cave and runs along the tunnel, her shallow breathing echoing around her as she hear it call out to her, she can't face the child, she ignored the haunting cries of "Mama" she can't face it even when it gets louder, but she stops, standing still as she listens to the child's voice, feeling arms about her waist, and a clock begins to tick as she picks up the child and begins to run once more, the child still speaking the word in her ear as everything falls apart. She wants to promise that it'll be okay, but the words break before she utters them, and the world collapses into shards.
ReplyDeleteLost someone you tried to desperately protect? Or is it that you lied to someone and the lie was very horrible? Or is it that you were betrayed, since the girl in your vision could be you.
DeleteThose are the connections I can make with your vision, good job.
This is personal, so a certain name has been put as [Redacted] as to not slander his/her name now he/she is dead, really, he/she did his/her best.
ReplyDeleteThis reminds me of my brother Oscar for reasons I will explain later. Anyway, when I was very little, I used to think Oscar, six years older than me, was my 'main' family, if that makes any sense. Almost like my mother, step-father and sisters were really close neighbours I just happened to live with. "Oscar" was my first word as a baby, well I know it's not a word, it's a name, still, it's the first coherent thing I ever said.
Whenever there was fighting in the house between [all names redacted here] about [more stuff I'm redacting], Oscar and I used to hole up in a room and blast music out the speakers to drown out the noise. Darude, Pendulum, Nero, Knife Party, Skrillex, Vexare, Deds Zed, Depeche Mode, Prodigy, MitiS, Innerpartysystem, Daft Punk, Deadmau5, Underworld, that sort of thing. And play Lego and video games. Sometimes the music made my ears hurt a bit because I was little, but it was what Oscar wanted so I didn't care.
But sometimes it didn't drown out enough of it, so it was just a din that rang in my ears long after I had crawled off to bed. Also [Redacted] didn't like Oscar's music and found it annoying, "fuckin button-bashing electronica techno fuckin dubstep trash", sometimes [Redacted] came in and pulled the plug and we'd just have to listen to the yelling and crashing. Like that was somehow better. [Redacted] rarely hurt us so it wasn't that bad, but still.
Tis is why you are slowly descending into darkness, interesting, I can also presume who the "redacted" person is.
DeleteInteresting.
What do you mean, that's why? Is it?
DeleteI would be interested to know who you think [Redacted] is.
I think the implication is that childhood issues are what caused you to be so blase about killing. Seems to me that he's going by Rousseau's point of view, that people are basically blanks slates leaning towards good, but external factors can cause evil. Which may be interesting, given that he may still pursue destruction despite this viewpoint. Do you consider destruction to be a 'good' outcome, Kelevra? Not a psychological question, more philosophical.
DeletePlease note that the above is no better than guesswork. If you're going to make judgements, don't make them based off a guy who's only sober 'cause he doesn't have time to drink anymore.
Of course I consider Destruction to be a good outcome, not because people are useless or some other shit. Destruction makes people do something, consider what they value, truly re-look their lives.
DeleteHell, it even makes people work together, help each other out and so on... It makes people work together, against one common foe, the one who is causing Destruction.
Just like Hitler, he did horrible things, but in doing them, he concentrated anger on himself and was a valid threat to everyone, so almost ALL countries worked together to take him down. WWII a time when people sympathized toward each other and help each other out, because back then, everyone was in danger.
Not saying that I'm trying to make people work together by concentrating all their anger on me, I don't care about that, I care about Destruction, but people still work together to take me down. Hell a good example of that are the Servants that teamed up on me. As an Ex-Proxy I can surely say, Servants rarely team up, especially Proxies with Timberwolves, those hate each others guts and yet, they worked together to take me down.
Destruction brings people closer to each other.
I can see the bringing people closer thing, and also people from different backgrounds, if not for Slendy, the odds of me travelling around with some ex-military blokes would be slim. And the odds of me befriending Kelevra would be even slimmer.
DeleteAs for being blasé about killing because of "childhood trauma", well I can't say for sure, honestly I've tried to forget most of it.