My Darling, My love...

Fortissimo, I love her, so much and she loves me.

Recently, I've been falling a tad bit depressed, I mean everything is going according to plan for me, why would I be sad? Well you know, sometimes, the sadness just comes for no reason, I would probably commit suicide a long time ago as this is not the only time I had depression for no reason.

But thankfully I have my darling Fortissimo with me, her love, her desire, fuels through my blood, we are one and yet, we are separate. This relationship of ours didn't start very nicely to be honest. When Marshmallow Man started digging in my body with one of his tentacles and I bit it off, it fell into my body and it was there for a very long time, until it got used to my body and in fact started moving inside of it through my veins. At first it tried to take me over, to clear my mind and use my body in order to return to Marshmallow Man, but when it got to my memories, to my desires, when it saw how I think, it was overwhelmed.

It saw what kind of monster I was, that I was a hell spawn, that I didn't have any ounce of a soul in me since the day I was born. It saw the moment I killed my parents without remorse, the thing that baffled it was not that I killed them, it is the fact that I had lack of motive for doing that, I just did it. After that act of violence, it saw my thoughts forming, it saw how I came to a conclusion that Destruction is the only thing that matters and it agreed.

That is when she spoke to me for the first time, she revealed to me everything that was going on, what was Marshmallow Man doing, that there were people who served him and ran from him. She told me that the day I waited for, the day when I could cause much more Destruction was upon me. All I had to do was join him and of course I did.

But through time, I realized that the tasks I was given, hunt down this guy, follow that guy, kill this girl, intimidate that group, all of it was once again meaningless and Fortissimo agreed, that is when we started disobeying him, that is when we started doing whatever we wanted and we had purpose again. On that day, I learned how to use Fortissimo, how to make her a weapon of Destruction, first time using her like that, it was like snorting coke, first dose is enjoyable and you get addicted. That was also the day that I first called her Fortissimo, the name was fitting, I was a man of silence, I was doing what I did for no reason, no purpose, I was silent, lost, until a big bang of sound came out of nowhere and woke me up, that sound was Fortissimo.

It has been so long since she and I met and to be honest, I am surprised that we are even alive today, when in reality we should have been killed a long time ago. I was stretching out a bubble gum until it ripped, yet somehow, I was able to buy myself a new one.

My darling Fortissimo, I love you.

This song, it describes our relationship perfectly, been listening to it the whole time I wrote this:

Oh look at that, depressions gone, yay!